This week I established that I want to take my Blog; "to the next level!" Whatever that means and entails? In return I have started doing some research and thinking of topics and different "features" I want my Blog to have.
Just today I read a "Mommy Blog" where the Blogger established that one must find your "niche" before moving into the "Big Time". I don't have super "killer" photography skills, though if time ever permits I wouldn't mind taking a class or two. I am not a very studied or skilled writer, I don't think. Although, through college I had pretty good grades in my English classes and all those Psychology research papers made me famous; not literally but with my classmates and teachers. In the past I have been told, mostly by my Husband, a very bias critic, that I am an amazing writer. I think it's his way of getting me to help with his homework. I think I am average. But, working on it everyday, hence the Blog.
What I am and what I feel has become my passion more so in the last year is being a Wife and now a Mommy! If I had one thing to say that I was truly passionate about it would be my little family of soon to be 4!
I love being a wife. I love experiencing God in my life. I love having a son and being pregnant again! These were not words that years ago, at say 24, I thought I would ever say. I was a very career ambitious person. A woman who thought like many at 24; that I was on top of the world and deserved nothing less than diamonds and caviar!
Wow.
I have changed.
Which brings me to my first passion; Jesus. I love God. He has done amazing things in my life and is a huge reason why today I am a Wife and a Mom!
So, what would I say is my "niche"?
Family and FAITH!
A more thorough explanation? I would say that situations, people and things that bring forth an evolving and growing family and a stronger and more obedient Faith is what I am passionate about. Evolving as an individuals in every aspect of my life and growing as a whole with my family. I have matured much more than I could have ever imagined and I have learned from every failure and mistake as much as I know I can. And, I want to continue to learn and grow.
I am a huge advocate of marriage and Godly husband/wife relationships. My LOVE for God is what allows me to learn everyday that every marriage no matter how great could always use a little help. It's the little time of maintenance that creates a wonderful, lasting, and respectful marriage. It's about communication and passion for one another in every aspect.
I am also a HUGE advocate for education. I will tell you many times that I am a University of Houston Alum, it's not to brag but for people to know that I am proud of my accomplishments and wish the same education success to all other young Hispanic students! I can also then say that I am a HUGE advocate for; culture. My Hispanic, Mexican/American roots that is. I love meeting and hearing success stories of other young Hispanic men and women who are achieving everything and anything that they set their minds to!
As for my Faith, I am making mistakes everyday and growing because of them. Learning, humbling myself and moving on. That's all I can do!
In all, I am not sure I have fully evolved into my "niche" but I feel like I am certainly working hard everyday to get there. Only time will tell.
Have you found your "niche"?
If so what is it? I would love to know!
On a side note:
I have my Gender Ultrasound Monday. Above all I want to see my baby again and make sure he or she is ok! I pray that my pregnancy continues fairly uneventful. Come next week we will know, if Santiago will have a new little Sister or Brother!
We are excited!
I hope everyone has an amazing weekend and I hope everyone comes back next week to read more about the new adventures and ideas that my brain and heart develop!
Friday, November 19, 2010
Thursday, November 18, 2010
To "D" or Not to "D"?
It seems like these days I am either asking about the "D" word, or friends are telling me about the "D" word or I am witnessing the "D" word.
Discipline that is.
Tantrums. Rants. And outbursts.
Good thing my son can't add words just yet! Oh but the tantrums are VERY obvious and at times much more embarrassing than words. So, what to do? Well on my part I feel like A TOTAL FAILURE as a new parent. My son the 14 month old who not only drops to the floor and begins to kick, but also gives full swings at face if he doesn't get his way. Will he out grow this? If so, when?
My first response at this point is Love. But, does that mean I am condoning it?
As a parent who doesn't want to seems as if their child always gets their way, because in reality he doesn't. It just seems that way around others. What are my options?
Those of you who know me, know that I love to read and I will research this in every way possible.
I know that a major influence come from our culture. As someone who was constantly threatened by the "chancla" or "el cinto". Not because I had bad parents, I am sure I was being bad and my parents were young and frustrated like most parents in their time. But in return, I don't want to chase my son around the house or God forbid in PUBLIC yelling; "Wait 'til we get home te voy a dar con la chancla!" I am sure it will happen but if I can avoid it, I would love to know how. And, in listening to other mom stories, I don't want my child calling me out in public. My friend's son said to his mom; " Why are we going to the bathroom mom, so you can hit me!?" Clearly the child is not beaten on daily basis but I am sure he is spanked and that's what he meant.
I want to provide love and security like every other good parent in this world but I also want my son to know when I mean business. I don't want to hurt him and I don't want to have to repeat myself everyday, although at first I know it may be necessary, the repeating not the hurting.
Which, leads me to my next point. Hurt. My son cries with such pain when I don't allow him to do something, as a new mom, it breaks my mommy heart into a million pieces. But, even as a new mom, I know when the pain is real and when it's all about the "DRA-MA" because let me tell you this boy has drama written all over him!
My point is. Research is needed on my part. Patience. Love and LOTS of learning. I take in all the points from outside parties; i.e. my mom, my mother-in-law, my cousins, my friends with children, the lady at the store, etc etc. But, in the end it will be my choices that will determine if my son learns right from wrong, appropriate from inappropriate and when he can ask for a new toy or when he will need to settle for what he has.Which bring up anther important point.
Growing up I told myself, when I grow up and have kids I will give them EVERYTHING I never had, materialist things that is. As I matured and grew older, began working and EARNING my own materialistic things, I said to myself and then to my husband; "Forget that, my son or daughter has to work just as hard I did to get what they want." And, in the end I stand firmly behind that. Even if I had the money, which I don't, but even if I did, I am certain now that I will not be one to give, give, give, at least not the paper giving. I will love, love, love and remind my children that hard work and time will get them what they want and need. But, that you can't always have your cake and eat it to.
Life is too difficult for me to set my children up for failure by filling them with materialist wants and false sense of being what we are not or having what we don't have.
In the end. I think it all goes back to that same little "D" word.
Discipline.
That's my opinion. I would love to know what others think.
Discipline that is.
Tantrums. Rants. And outbursts.
Good thing my son can't add words just yet! Oh but the tantrums are VERY obvious and at times much more embarrassing than words. So, what to do? Well on my part I feel like A TOTAL FAILURE as a new parent. My son the 14 month old who not only drops to the floor and begins to kick, but also gives full swings at face if he doesn't get his way. Will he out grow this? If so, when?
My first response at this point is Love. But, does that mean I am condoning it?
As a parent who doesn't want to seems as if their child always gets their way, because in reality he doesn't. It just seems that way around others. What are my options?
Those of you who know me, know that I love to read and I will research this in every way possible.
I know that a major influence come from our culture. As someone who was constantly threatened by the "chancla" or "el cinto". Not because I had bad parents, I am sure I was being bad and my parents were young and frustrated like most parents in their time. But in return, I don't want to chase my son around the house or God forbid in PUBLIC yelling; "Wait 'til we get home te voy a dar con la chancla!" I am sure it will happen but if I can avoid it, I would love to know how. And, in listening to other mom stories, I don't want my child calling me out in public. My friend's son said to his mom; " Why are we going to the bathroom mom, so you can hit me!?" Clearly the child is not beaten on daily basis but I am sure he is spanked and that's what he meant.
I want to provide love and security like every other good parent in this world but I also want my son to know when I mean business. I don't want to hurt him and I don't want to have to repeat myself everyday, although at first I know it may be necessary, the repeating not the hurting.
Which, leads me to my next point. Hurt. My son cries with such pain when I don't allow him to do something, as a new mom, it breaks my mommy heart into a million pieces. But, even as a new mom, I know when the pain is real and when it's all about the "DRA-MA" because let me tell you this boy has drama written all over him!
My point is. Research is needed on my part. Patience. Love and LOTS of learning. I take in all the points from outside parties; i.e. my mom, my mother-in-law, my cousins, my friends with children, the lady at the store, etc etc. But, in the end it will be my choices that will determine if my son learns right from wrong, appropriate from inappropriate and when he can ask for a new toy or when he will need to settle for what he has.Which bring up anther important point.
Growing up I told myself, when I grow up and have kids I will give them EVERYTHING I never had, materialist things that is. As I matured and grew older, began working and EARNING my own materialistic things, I said to myself and then to my husband; "Forget that, my son or daughter has to work just as hard I did to get what they want." And, in the end I stand firmly behind that. Even if I had the money, which I don't, but even if I did, I am certain now that I will not be one to give, give, give, at least not the paper giving. I will love, love, love and remind my children that hard work and time will get them what they want and need. But, that you can't always have your cake and eat it to.
Life is too difficult for me to set my children up for failure by filling them with materialist wants and false sense of being what we are not or having what we don't have.
In the end. I think it all goes back to that same little "D" word.
Discipline.
That's my opinion. I would love to know what others think.
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Long Overdue and a PROMOTION!
Many years ago (ok months) I promised to begin featuring new people, places or things on our Family Blog.
Well I am...You guessed it....in CHANGE mode!
Therefore, TA-DA!
MY FIRST EVER FEATURE:
Rolando Huitron the owner of Arson Entertainment and Event DJ has asked me to feature his newest promotion. Below you will find all the details for this upcoming event.
Don't miss out!
Especially if you are having a special event in JANUARY!
You can contact Rolando Huitron at (281) 226-0858 or through his website at http://www.arsonent.com/index.html or on Facebook at http://www.facebook.com/pages/Humble-TX/Arson-Entertainment/133503256683695?ref=ts
Well I am...You guessed it....in CHANGE mode!
Therefore, TA-DA!
MY FIRST EVER FEATURE:
Rolando Huitron the owner of Arson Entertainment and Event DJ has asked me to feature his newest promotion. Below you will find all the details for this upcoming event.
Don't miss out!
Especially if you are having a special event in JANUARY!
You can contact Rolando Huitron at (281) 226-0858 or through his website at http://www.arsonent.com/index.html or on Facebook at http://www.facebook.com/pages/Humble-TX/Arson-Entertainment/133503256683695?ref=ts
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Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Ready for the next level!
YES! Change.
Many changes have already occurred but I am continuously evolving and moving on!
Therefore you will notice many new and exciting changes, I am happy and ready for them.
One huge new change that I was, "scared", to make in the past is language. Que? I usually post in English but I want everyone to learn and enjoy therefore from now on some post may be in completely in Spanish or in both Spanish and English, what we her'in Texas like to call...Spanglish!
Also, I want everyone to know MORE about who I am. I am a Mexican-American Houston born Mom. I will soon have 2 children and am a working Mom. As you all may know, I am a University of Houston graduate and I am very proud to be a COUGAR! Ha. Not that kind of Cougar but rather a U OF H Cooooooooog!!!!!!! Whoooooose Houuuuuuse!??!!?!?!?!?! WHICH BY THE WAY....Despite the fact that we are in HOUSTON, and that this city is inundated with UT fans and colors, my husband (ALSO A U OF H Student) and I found ONE, ONE UH cooler at HEB AND a small section of UH memorabilia at Target. What does that mean? MOVE OVER ORANGE AND WHITE...THE RED AND WHITE will soon take over as it should have years ago! Ok. I'm done. Ha.
I am just ready for new and exciting things to come and I can't wait.
I want my Blog to be an Everyday Blog for Everyday Moms! Nothing fancy just ordinary talk from an ordinary Mom.
Have a great day all!
THIS IS MY YEAR FOR CHANGE.
Many changes have already occurred but I am continuously evolving and moving on!
Therefore you will notice many new and exciting changes, I am happy and ready for them.
One huge new change that I was, "scared", to make in the past is language. Que? I usually post in English but I want everyone to learn and enjoy therefore from now on some post may be in completely in Spanish or in both Spanish and English, what we her'in Texas like to call...Spanglish!
Also, I want everyone to know MORE about who I am. I am a Mexican-American Houston born Mom. I will soon have 2 children and am a working Mom. As you all may know, I am a University of Houston graduate and I am very proud to be a COUGAR! Ha. Not that kind of Cougar but rather a U OF H Cooooooooog!!!!!!! Whoooooose Houuuuuuse!??!!?!?!?!?! WHICH BY THE WAY....Despite the fact that we are in HOUSTON, and that this city is inundated with UT fans and colors, my husband (ALSO A U OF H Student) and I found ONE, ONE UH cooler at HEB AND a small section of UH memorabilia at Target. What does that mean? MOVE OVER ORANGE AND WHITE...THE RED AND WHITE will soon take over as it should have years ago! Ok. I'm done. Ha.
I am just ready for new and exciting things to come and I can't wait.
I want my Blog to be an Everyday Blog for Everyday Moms! Nothing fancy just ordinary talk from an ordinary Mom.
Have a great day all!
Monday, November 15, 2010
Oh Baby!
Well next week I will be 20 weeks! Officially half way there! Whooo-hooo! I know, I owe some Ultrasound/Belly pics and let me tell you that BELLY...it's a growin'! I love it. I am starting to really feel movement and I LOVE it. I love listening to the baby's heartbeat at every visit, it makes my heart skip a beat. I fall in love every time a little bit more.... just like with my son!
Some updates:
We will be deciding next week on either a Big Boy Room or a New Nursery..... YAY!
Have a Blessed week!!!
Some updates:
- At this point I have been LESS sick than with Santiago.
- I do have Gestational Diabetes but I have Faith and I listen to my doctor.
- I am 19 weeks this week...and counting!
- The last almost 5 months have flown by mostly because this time around I began my pregnancy during an Election Cycle, as opposed to when I had my son I began at the end of the Presidential Election Cycle...it makes a HUGE difference. I have been so busy and will be somewhat busy until almost the end of my pregnancy, which is GREAT! Because then my days fly by!
- I had LOST yes LOST 5 lbs and up until this weekend ALL of my regular everyday clothes and work clothes fit me but I have since gained yes GAINED 3 lbs of the 5 I had lost and well soon enough I will be loving my maternity clothes again BUT...with my son, I was only about 8 weeks when I had to start wearing maternity clothes..which BTW is expensive!!!
- Baby is growing good and his or her heartbeat sounds awesome!!!
- In 7 days we will know....PINK OR BLUE...Violet or Green...Red or Orange! You get my point.
We will be deciding next week on either a Big Boy Room or a New Nursery..... YAY!
Have a Blessed week!!!
Friday, November 12, 2010
Chaos.
Who me?
Regardless of my usual scatter-brain-ness, some days are just crazy! None like mine I like to think, haha.
So, yesterday was sheer chaos; without my family and friends to help me through the day, I would have curled up into the fetal position and never gotten back up!
It makes me so Thankful to have the women in my life that are currently in my life, they are always there with kind words of Faith or a slap on the head to get me to move on....BOTH are GREATLY appreciated! When they are not telling me how it is, they are making me laugh and reminding me that life is GREAT! That is also very much appreciated!
Today is Friday.
The weekend is here and I just want to rest and clean my house!
No big plans, just some relaxing.
I guess there is always calm after the storm....
Today; I am 18 weeks pregnant and Santiago is 4 days from being 14 months! I am in love with my life; being a Wife and now a Mom has made me realize how amazing God has been to me!
I want to post my ultrasound pictures and some belly shots of this growing belly...soon...
Regardless of my usual scatter-brain-ness, some days are just crazy! None like mine I like to think, haha.
So, yesterday was sheer chaos; without my family and friends to help me through the day, I would have curled up into the fetal position and never gotten back up!
It makes me so Thankful to have the women in my life that are currently in my life, they are always there with kind words of Faith or a slap on the head to get me to move on....BOTH are GREATLY appreciated! When they are not telling me how it is, they are making me laugh and reminding me that life is GREAT! That is also very much appreciated!
Today is Friday.
The weekend is here and I just want to rest and clean my house!
No big plans, just some relaxing.
I guess there is always calm after the storm....
Today; I am 18 weeks pregnant and Santiago is 4 days from being 14 months! I am in love with my life; being a Wife and now a Mom has made me realize how amazing God has been to me!
I want to post my ultrasound pictures and some belly shots of this growing belly...soon...
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
~Praise and Worship Wednesdays~
Yes, it's been a while.
Today, I want to discuss; "Choices".
It seems to be the theme.
As you can see CHOICES make up our everyday and in every way!
My biggest choices these days have come in the form of Diabetes; yes Gestational Diabetes.
I should have expected it but I was thinking happy thoughts the last 17 weeks. I suggest you become informed, especially if you are like me and everyone, YES everyone in your Dad's family has it and well you are genetically inclined to have it as well.
My choices is to be aware. Be active. Be pro-active. Be positive. Make GOOD health choices. And move forward!
What are you choices today? Are you taking that leap of Faith and making the Faith-filled choices? Are the choices for you and for your well being?
Today I choose to be happy and do the right thing. Even if that means that the Dr. Pepper and chocolate filled chocolate donut have to wait for me for 5 months! YES 5 more months to go!
No biggie. I have Faith.
Today, I want to discuss; "Choices".
It seems to be the theme.
"You have a choice -Choices come in various forms; pink or blue, fries or tots, fish or chicken, sweets or not, divorce or marriage, children or pets, friends or acquaintance....
You can either worry or worship.
You can either pray or panic.
The more you pray, the less you'll panic. Relax, because God will take care of you!"
~Purpose Driven Connection by Rick Warren
As you can see CHOICES make up our everyday and in every way!
My biggest choices these days have come in the form of Diabetes; yes Gestational Diabetes.
I should have expected it but I was thinking happy thoughts the last 17 weeks. I suggest you become informed, especially if you are like me and everyone, YES everyone in your Dad's family has it and well you are genetically inclined to have it as well.
My choices is to be aware. Be active. Be pro-active. Be positive. Make GOOD health choices. And move forward!
What are you choices today? Are you taking that leap of Faith and making the Faith-filled choices? Are the choices for you and for your well being?
Today I choose to be happy and do the right thing. Even if that means that the Dr. Pepper and chocolate filled chocolate donut have to wait for me for 5 months! YES 5 more months to go!
No biggie. I have Faith.
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Better than a Hallelujah.....
Sometimes...
I hope you have heard this song...because it has been a TRUE Blessing for me...
These days...my bank account is poor but my spirit REFUSES to be quiet!
Yes, I have been in a rut..for MONTHS now....stuck in that same place, with the same issues....about the same people... why? Why? Should I lie down and die...instead of Rejoice and Praise?! I have been down and then I have up...but today..I say..AMEN!
God is sooo good and nothing and no one can change that!
I am now 17 weeks pregnant..in only 2 weeks we find out if our baby is a boy or a girl! And, at Thanksgiving we will have ONE more itty-bitty tiny person to be Thankful for. Yes, I have been bad at keeping up with my Blog and updating the world about my latest baby bump! But, you know what..it's only because God has made it this way..he knows why and he knows when!
I have so many pictures to share and new ultrasounds to show off, but I have not had time to get them posted...I will.
Life has not been as laid back as I would have wanted the last 4 and half months..but that will only make me and our new baby stronger....and ready for what is to come!
I hope everyone is patiently waiting for us...we are here and when we come back it will be awesome!
I hope you have heard this song...because it has been a TRUE Blessing for me...
These days...my bank account is poor but my spirit REFUSES to be quiet!
Yes, I have been in a rut..for MONTHS now....stuck in that same place, with the same issues....about the same people... why? Why? Should I lie down and die...instead of Rejoice and Praise?! I have been down and then I have up...but today..I say..AMEN!
God is sooo good and nothing and no one can change that!
I am now 17 weeks pregnant..in only 2 weeks we find out if our baby is a boy or a girl! And, at Thanksgiving we will have ONE more itty-bitty tiny person to be Thankful for. Yes, I have been bad at keeping up with my Blog and updating the world about my latest baby bump! But, you know what..it's only because God has made it this way..he knows why and he knows when!
I have so many pictures to share and new ultrasounds to show off, but I have not had time to get them posted...I will.
Life has not been as laid back as I would have wanted the last 4 and half months..but that will only make me and our new baby stronger....and ready for what is to come!
I hope everyone is patiently waiting for us...we are here and when we come back it will be awesome!
Friday, October 22, 2010
Not in Vain....
I have been sooo busy and out of that I have not had a chance to write, create and be.
But, promise that soooon, I will get to working on this reallyyyy soon!
Please don't write me off just yet......
I will be the creative, fun-loving Mommy of one and one to be once more!
Hahaha.
Very soon!
But, promise that soooon, I will get to working on this reallyyyy soon!
Please don't write me off just yet......
I will be the creative, fun-loving Mommy of one and one to be once more!
Hahaha.
Very soon!
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Mommy Wish List
Wow. Lots to do with no money….fun huh!?
Ha.
Well I have for some time neglected my blog…perhaps on purpose…I have also changed the name which means I have to change some of the widgets, so please bear with me!
Here are some more things I wish I could do and will hopefully have time to do:
Ha.
Well I have for some time neglected my blog…perhaps on purpose…I have also changed the name which means I have to change some of the widgets, so please bear with me!
Here are some more things I wish I could do and will hopefully have time to do:
- Above all I want to stay on top of going to church and praying with my son and husband.
- Take my Santi to the zoo.
- Take my Santi to the museum.
- Get my Santi’s first hair cut.
- Get my nails done and a pedicure….maybe by this week.
- I need new flats and heels for work…mine are over a year old…
- I want to decorate for all Holidays this year…starting with Halloween… (Thanksgiving and Christmas, then Valentines and spring!)
- I want to create a day of the dead altar [Google it...my Blog is not taking links!]
- I want to create a nativity setup..like in Mexico… my grandmother used to do it every year before she passed and my aunts in Mexico continue it…[Google it...my Blog is not taking links!]
- I want to cut my hair...
- I want to take nice pictures of my little family of 3 once more before we become a family of 4!
- I want to organize my computer room
- I want to clean out my garage….
- I need to find a new Pediatrician for my Santi.
- I want to get back to taking lots of pictures!
- I want to attend Posadas somewhere!
- I want to have nice maternity and family pictures done....
- I want to go to Olive Garden.
- I want to get my Thank You notes out from Santi's First Birthday
- I want to start Christmas shopping..need to make a list and check it twice! lol.
- I want to take my Santi to a Pumpkin patch
- I want to take my Santi to the Renaissance festival again!
- I want to take my Santi to the Greek Festival
- I want to take my Santi to the Fall Church Festival
That’s it for now….
Ha.
Friday, October 1, 2010
Becoming "THAT" Mom I said I never would.....
I have to admit...
Point is... I knew being a wife was difficult..I knew being a Mom was difficult...I know being a working Mom and wife is difficult..but for some ODD reason...I THOUGHT...THAT I, I of all people could do it...a lot better than I have...I think at MOMENTS...rare ones...I create a great illusion..but the truth is....some days...I can't even breath..much less think...and do....
So, yes...I have great days and an "I can do" attitude..but some days...are sooooo difficult....being everything that I am...and trying to be an employee...a sister....a daughter....a parishioner....a disciplined Catholic/Christian....a "friend"...a whoever or whatever people expect me to be.... I just can't....and some days...I don't care to be.....
Well today I pray...for change.....time...patience....I will do this... I can do this...and becoming "that" Mom will be a thing of the past....
- My son is a permanent fixation to my hip.....[He cries if I put him down and I love having quick access to those fat cheeks!]
- He cries and I want to run....[He's a better baby when he's happy...duh!]
- He looks for me and I want to hide.....[Why always the MOM?!]
- I don't care to shower on the weekends....[Sorry..it's true!]
- My weekdays always start off with...."I'm gonna be late!" [Nuff said]
- We doesn't always eat healthy snacks......[We would love to..but you know how long that takes...]
- I haven't had an ounce of exercise, me time, girl time, or Ricardo and I time in over a year.....[But, you know what? I don't care for it..I am sooooo exhausted that I don't care for it.....]
- My son doesn't get a shower every night.....[I strive for it..but some nights..just give me a break!]
- I don't wash clothes every week.....[I used to wash everyday....]
- I hate doing the dishes and the thought of dinner makes me panic.....[Especially the last 3 months]
- Work has become a chore...[One that I have to do...or we won't eat.....]
- I am 3 months pregnant and my son is 12 months..you do the math.....[Don't get me wrong...I am ecstatic..and after this one...I don't think it will be long before we have our 3rd one...no joke....]
- I rarely brush my hair....[You know if you see me on a daily basis..]
- I never dress up....[Or care to!]
- Makeup? [ I think it's been years..plus I've never really cared for it....]
- Pedi/Mani....[Don't make me laugh....]
- New clothes and shoes....[Oh you mean these 2 year old Coach shoes my torn jeans and last years maternity shirts are cutting it anymore...hmmmm......GO FIGURE!]
- Going out....like to get the mail?.... [no thanks...]
- Fun scrapbooking and crafting ideas...[Uhm...one day.....]
- This Blog....writing and being creative.... I've let it slip...[That I regret...]
Point is... I knew being a wife was difficult..I knew being a Mom was difficult...I know being a working Mom and wife is difficult..but for some ODD reason...I THOUGHT...THAT I, I of all people could do it...a lot better than I have...I think at MOMENTS...rare ones...I create a great illusion..but the truth is....some days...I can't even breath..much less think...and do....
So, yes...I have great days and an "I can do" attitude..but some days...are sooooo difficult....being everything that I am...and trying to be an employee...a sister....a daughter....a parishioner....a disciplined Catholic/Christian....a "friend"...a whoever or whatever people expect me to be.... I just can't....and some days...I don't care to be.....
Well today I pray...for change.....time...patience....I will do this... I can do this...and becoming "that" Mom will be a thing of the past....
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