This year I want to grow, but really grow. Be more mature and let go of all the un-needed situations in my life. Not create anything that I obviously don't want to handle and focus. Focus on my life, my husband, my son, my family, God, my career, my friends. And just be Happy. There is no need for the sadness. I know that with God in my heart I just can't go wrong. I have much to celebrate about this year and who knows if God wants maybe even another little one for us...I would really rather wait and enjoy Santiago but he brings SO much Love, Light and Joy into our lives that we honestly can't wait to have another baby! Only God will dictate when! In the mean time I plan to continuously keep a clear and attentive mind with positive and happy surroundings. Surroundings which include true people of Faith, who will not only raise my family in prayer with theirs, but who truly wish us Blessings and Love.
1 Corinthians 13:11 (New International Version)
11When I was a child, I talked like a child; I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me.
One person who ALWAYS kicks me back into perspective is my husband. We grew up together and know each other very well. We love one another and we are not perfect and at times annoyed by one another and even have frequent squabbles but in the end we know each other and we love each other. Like many couples, like many marriages we have had ups and downs but we never lose sight of what really matters. In our case we have submerged ourselves in our Faith and have come a very long way. No one is perfect.
Ephesians 5:1-2 (New International Version)
1Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children 2and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.
It has not been an overnight process it has been 10 years going on 11 of what we have. You can't expect your situations to change if you don't commit to it 100%, if you don't slowly expect change and if you don't work at it every day! Ricardo and I have done that for 10 years...and JUST NOW...Just now things are great! We have struggles everyday and have been through some very hard times both as individuals and with our families and still we continue to work at it. We have had SO many times when we have to sit back and think wow we have come a long way and have gone through so much, we remain in awe and think how incredible...and just feel Blessed.
1 Thessalonians 5:18 (New International Version)
18give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.
I am going to share something VERY personal from this past Christmas, it's what my husband wrote on the inside of a Christmas card for Santiago, and the outside says "Very 1st Christmas".
So, that you can further understand the note here is the story behind it. Ricardo lost his job in September 2009, right before Santiago was born. Prior to that we had discussed me getting a "new car", a mommy car if you will, my dream car was an Armada. Then he lost his job and I had to go back to work, even though we had also considered me possibly being a stay at home mom. When I went back I realized that since I had been so good at breast feeding Santi I lost more weight than I thought I would and my work clothes fit me huge! But, we were broke with Ricardo laid off and me having been on an 10 week maternity leave of which 8 weeks were unpaid so I couldn't buy new clothes. And really none of this affected us in anyway…but when I read this…it’s just remind me of what is TRULY important and puts so many situations and things into perspective. I am really blessed. Really.
"Even though I am broke this Christmas, it's the best ever. Thank you for the precious gift of a son that you've given me. I thank God for my Blessed family. Have Faith in me that everything will be OK. I love you and my son with all my heart. Gift card is for your mom, it's not an Armada but it's the best I could do."
Just Blessed. Couldn’t ask for ANYTHING more.
Galatians 3:9 (New International Version)
9So those who have faith are blessed along with Abraham, the man of faith.