Monday, June 7, 2010

Opening my heart and my eyes.

Friday was a big awakening for me. I realized that at that point, I had too much on my plate. This is never good. You go into overload and eventually crash and burn. Well thankfully one single event of disappointment at a 4pm meeting Friday afternoon allowed me to realize that I just need to regroup. Find my peace again and be continuously reminded of WHO will bring me that peace, His name is Jesus, our Lord, God is the ONLY Prince of Peace and He is who I need to get back to.

I realized that I am not here to be everyone’s friend and do good for everyone, it’s impossible! God has already placed those Women of Faith in my life that He sees fit; I no longer need to seek. God has already planned where I will do good, I don’t need to make constant commitment to others about my time and help. It’s already planned, by Him.

Like I said Friday was a HUGE day for me. A day with emotions that I had not felt in a really long time. And, it felt good, to look for God and find Him in an unlikely place. A parking lot, it’s like that song… “I found God on the corner of 1st and Amistad……” in actuality I think He found me at the most unexpected time and place. All I had to do was be prepared. To follow Him, no matter where He leads me and trust Him. Because that’s all He asks of me.

Another realization was my Blogging. I used to just Blog, started out with a sarcastically witty Blog, if I may say so myself, “toot-toot”, Ha. [Blog] And through it found peace, an outlet that led to a Faith Blog and now with my son a Family Blog. I love all 3 and really more recently feel more like writing about the one who saved me. He is the reason I am here. And, more times than not He reminds me of this. But, more recently I had created a schedule for myself, “forcing” a Blog almost daily, Faith can’t be forced. I want it to be natural and Godly. So, you may or may not hear from me for a while. But, I know God will not let me abandon you completely. I just need some reorganizing in my priorities. And, God is so good He is already sending me the tools:

I am sure I have stated before that I receive several devotionals and I do read them and take them to heart and learn from them. This morning one of my devotionals went further into “refueling” something that I am doing at this very moment, like your car needs gas….we need God.

The Blog [] called for the following steps:

- Unplug

- Spend time in silence

- Recall a favorite verse

- Be still

The Author, Deidra, stated “But refueling is essential if I'm going to get anywhere.” It all makes SO much sense.

Already as of Friday I have stared to implement these steps without even knowing of them:

I have “unplugged”; deactivating my Facebook and sticking to my email and Blog only but rarely. As for silence God has taken care of that, this week at work I have to cover the reception area, an area away from everyone, that although usually a high traffic area these days considering we don’t have an Election is quiet bringing me peace. Recalling my favorite verse, almost made me cry, it’s one that years ago I learned and could recite back and forth and did, all day and all night and it got me thought the worse years of my life. The verse comes from Psalm 27 Of David. “1 The LORD is my light and my salvation—whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life—of whom shall I be afraid? 2 When evil men advance against me to devour my flesh, [a] when my enemies and my foes attack me, they will stumble and fall.” And today this verse will save me… and with it I will be still.

The following devotional excerpts reminded me of my Mom, my Sister and my dear friend and Sister in Christ Casey, who this weekend all came to the rescue in some way shape or form:

The Blog []

What it stated:

“Scripture reminds us that "oil and perfume make the heart glad, and the sweetness of a friend comes from his earnest counsel" (Proverbs 27:9).”

 “Your faith will continue to grow as you fasten yourself to faithful friends who give good counsel.”

“Proverbs 27:6, "Faithful are the wounds of a friend, But deceitful are the kisses of an enemy." (NAS)”

My Favorite quote for today:

"Worrying is using your imagination to create something you don't want." - Esther Hicks, is a best-selling author and speaker.

The verse that I will be learning from today:

“9 Salvation is not a reward for the good things we have done, so none of us can boast about it. 10 For we are God's masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago." Ephesians 2:9-10 NLT

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