Where I am now? ::Using our energy to move forward ::

Where I am now?

Well, I am in-between. Per usual. 

Between..... here and there. 

Between balancing life and Motherhood. Between finding myself and being lost. Between being myself and trying to recreate who I am. Between writing and taking time off. Between falling apart and building myself back up. 

I feel like I have been in this place for a while now, years maybe. Stuck, seeking a place with relevance to who I am and what I want for my future. It takes time for me to truly settle not because I don't want to settle but because I have not found the place that is a right fit for me.

In life that is... 

But, I think it all comes down to growth and continued learning. 

Does this mean I am a non-conformist? Maybe, a little?  I just want to be in a good place where I can "settle" but don't have to settle for less. It means that no matter what right now, I am making seeking this better place for me, making it a priority and my main focus. 

Have I thought about leaving the blog world? I talk about it almost every year, quitting and not blogging anymore, giving it all up and moving on with my life. But, it hasn't happened yet mainly because every time I try to quit something even more amazing falls into my lap and I have that innate urge to run with it. And, I usually do.

The writing also...... always, brings me back in. 

For almost 5 years now I  have also helped run a group called the Houston Latina Bloggers. Because of it, other amazing projects have come together in collaboration with so many other local women who hustle hard. Not to mention I work an 8-5 p.m. non-social media related position, have two young children, and I have also worked on my professional development and creating workshops to grow my blog and social media side-gig, and oh yeah, I try to maintain a somewhat social life.

In between all this,  I needed a good long pause and found a moment to slow down the Momma of Dos engine. To re-focus. Find my clarity and start over.... 

In a nutshell, I needed a true break. NOW, it's April of 2019 and the fire is back...

This year I want to give my all in a purposeful and genuine way and continue to move forward. This time, I hope it's different. I want to maintain a good focus and I want 2019 to end differently.

So, what will be different? 

Last year I started learning more about channeling into energies, vibes, and the light that surrounds us. I have since tried to truly seek these energies in myself and others. On the flip-side, I never really knew what kind of energy I was giving out to other people or how other people perceive me. But, I've learned to be more in tune and conscious of "my energy, my vibe" and who I am attracting. I know that I'm a person that tries to do as much as possible for everyone and anyone. I also know that I have been the kind of person that will find time to support others and give credit where credit is due. I don't ever really think twice about it, I just do it.

I truly believe in karma... do good for others and don't expect anything in return.

I know that I feed off of other peoples energy.  I feel that everybody has all the things they need to succeed. We choose to do things differently and to follow our own purpose and follow that light and that energy that we each carry. I always try to think about the positive because I definitely feel like I'm a positive person. Which doesn't mean that I don't have dark moments because I have them for sure. I've been in all kinds of situations and I've been hurt and hurt others but you keep going. You push through that energy and you renew it and you renew your life and you renew your vibes.

The difference is direction and intention... I want a new direction and intention for my blog...and that's what I plan on achieving. 

{BLOG-cation!}

This Summer has been busy! More like BU-SYYYYY!

Because well, it has been.... one whirlwind after another....and it's not getting any better...

Here is the story:

Our home consist of....

My Hubby; a Full-time student, trying to finish school ASAP, he will ONLY be 1 class away from graduation after this December, but in the mean time, he is taking FIVE classes, YES FIVE! Oh did I mention he also has to work to partly assist in supporting our home? Well he does. He is an intern and doesn't make much but still goes to work EVERY.SINGLE.DAY. He is very professional and hates missing work! But, did I mention the FIVE classes, well yes that's the Hubby.

Then there is ME. I recently received a promotion at work, YAAAY! I know right!? Only that it was one of those one day to the next kind of a thing where you really just... GO! Don't look back and think about it later...well I am in the thinking stage, NOW. You see for 3 years I prayed almost every day for doors to open and nothing...now 3 years and 2 kiddos later...they open... SO wide, it's been amazing! An answered prayer... so again...I am thinking. My new job keeps me well, BUSY. And, did I mention I have 2 kiddos and a Hubby who works and goes to school FULL-time. Oh yes, and then, there is this place I love to go, it's called Church. For about 2 months now I have been going to the chapel on Friday nights just because and to a Prayer and Worship workshop on Tuesday nights, for Faith. Then there is this LOVELY Blog that I just LOVE, LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE to keep. And well, I have been a bit overwhelmed to say the least...but no worries..I love it all!

{As I look back on my Blog History..I have Blogged almost everyday the last 3 months, uhm, and to that I say, HOW ABOUT A LITTLE  BLOG-CATION!?!?! But, worry and fear quickly sink in and I wonder...what if I lose readers, what if my current readers get tired of waiting....and then God speaks...Connie...todo a su tiempo...and right now..is a time to pause... to wait and to listen! Not for too long but just long enough!}

Then there are the two VERY busy, super active, Momma {& Daddy} Love wanting kiddos...my FINALLY 2 year old son and my beautiful 6 month old daughter! Surely you will miss them but when I come back I will have TONS of new Momma topics to discuss and post about! That will definitely be a part of my Blog-cation! {Need to get all my notes and thoughts in order!}My children are doing amazing...no worries...all love and patience...for that day when their Momma can finally be a Stay-at-Home Momma! I have realized that, that {along with being my own boss}is my true calling but in the mean time I have to help in supporting my family by working an everyday 8 to 5 {or later, HA!} job! One day I pray that my dream of staying at home with my kids will happen! God knows why, and He definitely knows WHEN! All in His timing Connie. All in His timing.

And, don't worry..I usually provide some oldies but goodies!


If you want to know more about the birth of my two children click HERE:HERE:HERE: AND HERE.

If you want to read some Every-day's by Momma click HERE:HERE:HERE:HERE.

And who can forget all of the AMAZING Momma's who most recently taught me SO MUCH MORE ABOUT BEING A MOM, A WOMAN AND FRIEND! FOR THEM CLICK HERE! 

I WILL BE BACK SHORTLY...TRUST ME! 

In the mean time..if you want to reach me...you can email me at: mommaofdos@gmail.com

Thank YOU for being here!!! 

 

Some updated pictures of my Heart! 

 

 

{Jessica M.} ♥

{Momma Love Series}

I am really excited about this post. 

It comes from an old friend from one of my very first jobs...

I worked with Jess at Texas Children's Hospital here in Houston. 

 I never thought I would keep long lasting friendships with such amazing women
but God has been great to me! 

 Jessica is one of those Momma's that continuously inspires me to be not just a momma..

but a MOMMA! 

Might I add, she has the most handsome little boys ever!!

Enjoy!!! 

{Guest Blogger} 

I’m Jessica Meza, a.k.a Momma.  I have two boys.  My oldest son, Gabriel, just became a teenager over the summer.  And my youngest son, Julian, is 7 years old.  I have always been a “working” mother.  I’m not gonna lie, part of me enjoys working outside the home since I’m not the best at keeping house…so I try not to complain too often.  Currently I’m working as a Realtor, and part time as an office assistant at a psychiatrist’s office, and trying to create a new bakery- JJ’s Cupcakery, with my BFF.  Yup, I’m busy!  Amazingly, I still have time to enjoy my crafts: photography, scrapbooking, crocheting, sewing, and reading.

 

The year I turned 23, two wonderful things happened.  First, I became pregnant for the first time.  Second, I gave birth to a sweet and beautiful baby boy.  This first pregnancy was completely unplanned, but I prepared myself through one of my favorite activities, reading.  The pregnancy itself took some getting used to.  My body was being difficult, and didn’t want to keep any food down for several months.  During this time period, I actually lost weight.  Once I was able to eat and keep my food down, my weight stabilized and luckily I had no other problems.  

On July 29th, I woke up about 6 a.m. with what I thought was a stomach ache.  I headed for the bathroom but was unsuccessful.  I returned to bed, only to be awoken by more stomach pain and then I finally realized that I was experiencing contractions.  Later that day I arrived at Memorial Hermann Hospital.  I settled in and received my epidural. Then I waited.  As the afternoon became evening, my contractions became even stronger.  I requested another epidural, but it was too late! The baby was coming and I had to push.  I know the pain was intense since the epidural had mostly worn off.  I struggled with the pain for a while, but finally at 8:13 p.m. Gabriel was born.  

It wasn’t difficult to adjust to my new life as a mother.  Gabriel was an excellent baby.  He had a good temperament and even began sleeping through the night at 4 weeks!  I don’t recall many specific details from that first year, but he was the first grandkid on both sides of the family so he was spoiled with love and many, many toys! 

My second pregnancy was planned and went along just fine.  I only suffered through a little morning sickness in the beginning.  This time I was working and worked until the day before the baby was born.  I left work on Friday, after having contractions for most of the day.  That night at about 11pm I was admitted to the Methodist Hospital.  This time I was feeling strong contractions before I was given the epidural.  My legs were shaking uncontrollably from the pain.  It wasn’t long after I received the epidural that I was in full labor.  This time the medicine was working great and the labor was easy for me.  I felt fully alert and was able to push without any pain.  Julian was born on February 7^th at 7 a.m. and weighed 7 pounds.  

Julian is my “little one”, and I love him, but I don’t recall having all these white hairs before he was born!  It was TWO years before I was able to get a full night’s sleep…I was just exhausted.  And the tantrums!  I had never even thought that I would have a child that would throw such horrifically loud, screaming fits, throwing himself on the floor, crying, throwing up, will this EVER end tantrums.  I’m actually smiling as I remember them, as if I find them funny, but I have the white hairs to prove they were real and not figments of my imagination.  Well at least he grew out of it (mostly).  

I love so many things about my boys.  I love how they are the same and how they are different.  I love watching them have fun, hearing them laugh, and snuggling with them.  I love being their mom.

Contact and Follow Jessica :

https://www.facebook.com/pages/JJs-Cupcakery/124232780970936

{Jazmin ♥} En Español

Momma Love ~En Español~

Esta niña es un encanto!!! 

Me da mucho gusto ser su Amiga. 

Es una verdadera inspiracion. 

Tan joven y talentosa. 

La conosco hace apenas un año. 

Nuestros niños son del mismo mes, del mismo año...y casi casi del mimo dia!! 

Lo que es mas curioso todavia....su papa y mi mama crecieron juntos...en un pueblo pequeño de Mexico... afuera de Cuernavaca Morelos...ese lugar es MI PASION...Temixco!!! 

Tenemos tanto en comun yo y Jaz... y espero le de todo su Amor... 

como ella se los da a todos quienes la conocen! 

Disfruten!!!

{Guest Blogger}

Mi Nombre es Jazmin,

Me gusta decorar, dibujar, escuchar música y pasar tiempo con mi familia.

Soy Mujer, Madre, Hija, Esposa, Ama de Casa y Estudiante de Cinematografía

Mi Blog: Querida… [http://queridamujer.blogspot.com/]

Por ahora solo tengo 1 Niño.

Y como me gusta decirle es Bebo.

Bueno mi historia es tannnnnnn larga, pero la tratare de hacer lo más corta posible. Me case a muy temprana edad [tenía 18 años] con mi marido y bueno en el transcurso de los primero 2 años no me embarazaba. Tuve muchos momentos de lágrimas porque lo único que yo eh querido tanto en mi vida era ser Madre y ser la madre que no tuve, Al ir al Doctor descubrí que tenía (SOP) Síndrome de Ovario Poliquístico y tuve que tener tratamiento de infertilidad para ayudarme a concebir a una hermosa creatura. Me acuerdo antes de tener mi primera cita con el doctor fui a la iglesia a pedirle a Dios y a llevarle un flor a La Virgen De Guadalupe y a ambos pedirle que si para tener a mi Bebe me tenía que dar toda las molestias que pasa una mujer embarazada que me las diera. Porque lo único que quería era ser Madre. 

Esperábamos con tanta ilusión a nuestro Bebe, que decidimos que fuera sorpresa su sexo. Como mi Marido y yo decíamos “Hay muy pocas sorpresas en esta vida”. Y bueno tuve lo que pedí, todo dolor que pudiera existir me dio, pero con gusto y sin tanto reclamo lo afronte. El simple hecho de saber que mi Marido y yo creamos un ser y yo con amor lo estaba ayudando desarrollarse ha sido el regalo más bonito que Dios me ha dado. Cada dolor de espalda, vomito, nausea que pasaba por lo menos yo se las agradecía a Dios. No me asustaba en lo más mínimo con cada cosa diferente que sentía o notaba cambiar porque leía mucho acerca de que tenía que sentir una mujer en cada semana del embarazo. En ese sentido nunca me asuste y asumí todo como tenía que pasar. La semana que era la cual me tenía que aliviar fui a mi última cita con el Ginecólogo y de ahí me mandaron directo al hospital a indujeron el parto. Estaba muy hinchada ya a este punto que lo único que yo quería era ya aliviarme y conocer a mí Bebe. Y bueno entre Lunes en la tarde sin ni un dolor alguno, era más agoto físico que nada. El parto fue un poco largo pero no sufrí tanto como lo hacen ver en los programas de televisión donde salen los partos de mujeres. Los dolores lo me comenzaron a intensificarse alrededor del Martes de en la tarde [dicen que las contracciones son más intensas cuando el parto es inducido a comparación de tener contracciones naturales] y no tuve el epidural para calmar el dolor. 

Casi todo el parto fue como lo pensé excepto la parte cuando en vez de hacerme respirar para pujar él bebe me hacían respirar para mantenerlo a dentro y esperar al doctor q llegara. Mas chistoso era cuando llego nomas empuje tres veces y salió todo. Porque yo reclamándole a las enfermeras que ya estaba lista para empujar y ellas no me creían y ya una viene a chequearme y todo el cuarto en alboroto a prepararse porque la cabeza del Bebe ya se miraba. El doctor llego enseguida y en el momento que me toco pujar fue un “pedazo de paste”, a mi sentir fue la parte más fácil. No me costó nada de trabajo y fue el alivio más grande cuando salen por completo. Al salir su cabeza completa, él solito comenzó a llorar con tanto sentimiento que me hizo llorar. Salió por completo al 3cer pujido y con tanta ansiedad le pregunto a mi esposo que era ¿niño o niña? Y me dice mi Tía que “Niño”, la emoción de ambos mi esposo eh yo era inmensa. Deseábamos que fuera un niño y bueno yo sentía que iba a ser niño. Creo que tenía como 3 meses y soñé un niño güero, largo y grande y mi abuela lo estaba conociendo por primera vez y lo cargaba y me decía que mejor yo lo cargara por estaba muy grande y pesado. 

Y cuando lo mire por primera vez eso es lo que mire un niño güero, largo grandote con las manos y pies más grandes que yo haiga visto un Bebe con. Mi Bebo así nació grandote midiendo 20 ½ in y pesando 7 lb 8.8 oz. Yo por lo menos lo esperaba más pesado, porque yo fui una beba grande pesando 10lb. Pero bueno mientras lo limpiarlo seguía llorando con tanto sentimiento hasta que mi Tía lo cargo y comenzó a hablar con él y luego que yo ya pude cargarlo me lo dio y ya él estaba totalmente tranquilo. Yo en ese momento era la mujer más feliz. Nació una semana antes de mis 21 años...

Al día siguiente cuando mi Bebo y yo estábamos solos me puse a hablar con él y a decirle que él era todo lo que esperaba. Y como yo ya lo conocía en sueños, le cuento cuando estaba embarazada y lo soñé. Él me quería mirar pero tenía ojos japoneses, tan chiquitos como los míos que parecía costarle abrirlos. Recuerdo que todos los que iban a verlos decían que si apenas había nacido porque se miraba tan grande y tenía unos pies y manos tan grandes que en mi familia no se había visto desde que yo había nacido.

Mi Primer Año como Mama.

El primer año ha sido lo que esperaba y lo que no esperaba. Agradecí y recibí la poca ayuda que fue solo para bañarlo. No pude dar pecho como esperaba porque nunca me vino la leche. Pero de todo lo más importante no me se enfermó al extremo de tener una infección de oídos, noches en la sala de emergencia nada por ese estilo gracias a Dios. Solo como 4 veces le dio gripa y ha sido muy valiente para las vacunas. Hasta el día de hoy solo una vez le llego a dar calentura después de las vacunas. Ha sido un bueno niño para dormir. Al Mes y medio comenzó a dormir toda la noche.

Él ha sido nuestra motivación más GRANDE, la razón de nuestro existir el fruto de nuestro amor. El para mi es el milagro más grande que Dios me pudo dar. Tenerlo en mi vida ah sido todo lo que soñé. Lo único que no espere es lo que no te puedes esperar; reacciones, emociones, sentimientos. Con cada mes que pasaba mirarlo crecer le agradecía a Dios por darme esta dicha tan grande de cumplirme el sueño de ser la Madre que no tuvimos mi hermana y yo.

Amo a Mi Bebo ♥

Comunique y Siga a Jazmin:

http://queridamujer.blogspot.com/

{PattyU} ♥

Momma Love Series

Our second Momma Love Blogger is a young lady who I met not too long ago thru her Sister who just so happens to be one of my most Amazing Momma friends! Patty is her younger Sister. I love Sisters. I love my own so much that I love younger Sisters all around! Patty is a very talented young lady with the CUTEST little Man EVER.

Enjoy!!!

{Guest Blogger}

[PattyU] Patricia Umanzor, MOMMA of uno [Elijah O’Dell Heath ], full time worker in the oilfield industry, wife to Eric Umanzor for a year this month, September. I make hair bows and I am an amateur photographer!

[PattyU] of Pattypics Photography & Patti’s Bowtique

How old you were when you first became a Momma?

[PattyU]Pregnant at 18, Momma at 19.

Was  it expected?

[PattyU] not at all!

Did your pregnancy go well?

[PattyU] overall my pregnancy went well I only got nauseas 2 times! And besides that I was very very active!

Was your pregnancy what you expected?

[PattyU]not at all, I actually was still playing soccer for 2 months and I didn’t find out I was pregnant until I was 14 weeks prego. Elijah didn’t come up on my pregnancy test. I took a total of 10 pregnancy test from august until November, and even did blood work and he didn’t come up on any test until November 11th 2008.

Did your delivery  go well?

[PattyU]did it, my son basically walked out of me, I actually went to my weekly check up on a Friday, may 8 2009. I was 38 weeks and I wanted to tell my doctor if we could aim for having my son the next weekend. My apt was at 10 and the doctor didn’t see me until 11ish. I was all ready to to find out the status and if we could have the baby next week, the dr checks and then he said have you felt any pain or anything, I told him no im just ready for this baby to get out. He chuckled and said well your wish is granted your in labor. WHATTTT LABOR, NO I CANT BE I HAVE TO GO TO THE MALL (I KNOW HOW DUMB TO SAY THAT) I was already 4cm dilated. The doctor couldn’t believe I had no idea I was in labor. So he said you have no time go directly to the hospital this baby is coming today. I took a deep breath and said okay I guess he can come today. So I left and drove myself to the hospital lol. I called my mom and sister and they were freaking out. I got to the hospital and started to fill out all the paper work I finally got a room around 2ish. I was just watching Hannah Montana on their tv and talking to the nurses family started getting there. Long story short I had Elijah at 4ish, yupp not 3 hrs into being there I had Elijah J.

Was your delivery what you expected?

[PattyU] no I was very scared, I thought I was going to be in so much pain, I thought I was going to scream, cry, curse, faint, but nope I had him like a pro!

How was your first year as a Momma?

[PattyU] not what I expected! I was a teen mom and lost out of my mind. After I had Elijah I got PPD (postpartum depression) I was a mess. After 3 months it slowly wore off and I started to enjoy motherhood the best I could. I had a lot of help from my mom and sister. I was very blessed to have my mom that basically supported Elijah and I. Elijah’s 1st year was basically the year of ups and downs. I thought his dad would take a bigger role in his life than he did but I came to realize that as long as Elijah has a loving mother than he isn’t losing out in anything. I surely had to grow up and mature myself a lot sooner but I wouldn’t trade him nor being a mother for anything in the world!

Was it all that you expected?

[PattyU]Not at all, I sound so clique and like one of the girls on teen mom but I really thought his dad would take a bigger role, that Elijah would sleep all night. But once you have a baby you realize it isn’t all rainbows and butterflies. I also didn’t expect to fall in love like I did. He was perfect to me!

Contact and Follow Patty:
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Pattis-Bowtique/125781247494867
http://pattypicsphotography.blogspot.com/
http://twitter.com/#!/Patti_nic25

Miss you Much....

I miss my Blog....

'Nuff said...

One day soon I will get back to all those Blog promises I made before my unexpected long Blog-cation....

Hope you MISS me too!

Be back soon....

I hope...

wait for me.....

hehehehe.

Porque? {Why?} No really...Porque?

Why do we do what we do?

Why do we say what we say?

Why do we behave how we behave?

I have recently taken some "time"...for a Blog-cation....and I was thinking...why the quiet time....why?

For me. I remain quiet and out of sight for A reason...for HIS reason. For His purpose. For His Glory.

Sometimes we just need the quiet, the peace, the time away from those who you usually talk to ...to listen TO HIM!

Sometimes I just need to get away from the "busy-ness" of the "Social Networks", they are a true distraction from Him. Not to mention, if you let that get too out of hand...well you end up regressing {stuck, the same, and without true change} instead of progressing {for His will, His purpose, His Glory} ...does that makes sense?

Balance. That's all. Balance. Priorities. Real Priorities.

So, the silence and away time. Is much needed.

Also, I am very much in research mode. HA. I keep saying that, but I have started answering the Top 10 New Mommy questions and the research is going GREAT! If I do say so myself.

{Just a little update... I do have some baby updates and belly bump pics that I will post soon..not sure when....now back to my Blog-cation...hahahaha.}

Luke 10:38-42 (New International Version)

At the Home of Martha and Mary

 ³⁸ As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. ³⁹ She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet listening to what he said. ⁴⁰ But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, “Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!”    ⁴¹ “Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, ⁴² but few things are needed—or indeed only one.^[a] Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.”

Mama~Mama~Mama

As you all may know. I am pregnant. 29 weeks to be exact. And well. I love to read and read as much as I can. When I can.


When I was pregnant with my son, I had nothing else to do but read. But it's been 16 months since he arrived and since then I've had to "STOP" reading, my books at least. HA. I read to him all the time....I mean I catch the occasional "Mommy Magazine" as my husband calls them. And a couple of paragraphs during my commute downtime, of books that I opened, 16 months ago!

I am determined to go back to that bookworm me! (Have you played that game on Yahoo...I love it!)

It started this morning at my weekly fetal/maternal monitoring and ultrasound, as I thought about what I needed to remember and recall for my newborn when she arrives; like should she sleep on her back or on her belly and should I talk to her like an adult from day one or can I goo-goo ga-ga for a couple of weeks?

In all I need a refresher.


So, I am in research mode! I want to seek out the top 10 questions that new mommy's have! And then bring them here...

In the mean time..I have to organize my thoughts....not that I haven't been in the bloggy kind of mood just that LIFE...you know that thing that we revolve around...it's in the way man... Ha.

So, I think I need a little Bloooogggg-cation..I need to organize my thoughts and think things out really well for a bit..not too long I promise..but feel free to browse back and catch up on old blog post you may have missed!

I will be back soon...no worries...

Newest Belly pic! :D

♥ Blog-cation!

I AM WISHING EVERYONE A VERY VERY VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

I HOPE YOU RECEIVE EVERYTHING THAT YOU WANT AND THAT YOU ARE SURROUNDED BY ALL OF THOSE WHO LOVE YOU AND WHOM YOU LOVE!

Christmas is about the birth of our Saviour Jesus Christ so above all I wish you FAITH, LOVE AND CELEBRATION!!!!!!!

I will not be writing for some days....need a little tiny break.....

THANK YOU VERY VERY VERY VERY MUCH TO ALL OF YOU WHO READ!!!! WHO COMMENT, WHO FOLLOW ME!!! I ENJOY YOUR COMPANY AND WISH YOU MANY BLESSINGS!!!!!!!!

Luke 2:16-20 (NIV) "So they hurried off and found Mary and Joseph, and the baby, who was lying in the manger. When they had seen him, they spread the word concerning what had been told them about this child, and all who heard it were amazed at what the shepherds said to them. But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart. The shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all the things they had heard and seen which were just as they had been told."

Connie