{A lot of Faith} ♥

Yesterday my Sister said to me...."if it's meant to be then it will be."

So simple.

So true.

Truth.

Something I am SURE I have said to her many times or to others who are seeking. But, why is it so hard to accept that right now? I have faith that whatever is meant to be these days will be. I keep busy and fill my calendar. With my goals and my purpose. Not worrying too much about what everyone else has going on or where everyone else is in their journey of seeking, I have been there....and yes..most times...done that. Right now it's time for this Momma to seek in a different manner. Not only a Dream job but MY dream for the next 30 years and my family's future.

Years ago when I first met my Hubby I don't think I imagined my life to become, so full of LIFE. Our kids are a Blessing. Such an awesome Blessing, that at one point I didn't know if it would ever be possible to have children. At 32, I can honestly say that I have lived my life and accomplished almost everything that I have set my mind to do, small or big. Sometimes walking away from God, so far ahead that I have to stop myself and be reminded that He has been my strength. But, in the midst of it all I have never lost sight of His Love, His Wisdom and His words; which live deep inside my heart. Deep inside my soul. I knew of God as a kid, I didn't know God until I was 24. 24. I am  now 31, 32 in June. Those things, situations or circumstances that I thought were a priority then, now sit on the back burner.

I have found myself, in many dark corners and through many heartfelt and horribly shed tears. But, through it all I have remained. In faith. In light. And, open to the possibilities ahead. So, why is it so hard to accept where I am right now? In this quiet place. Still. Married to a great and supportive Man who yes...puts up with all my crazy antics and blog posts, Ha. Ha. A Momma of DOS very active, very hyper, somewhat spoiled {ok, very SPOILED}, tantrum throwing and demanding children who never use their inside voice and who consume my every being in the best way possible; who are teaching me patience and about using my inside voice. {True story; my son asked me not to SPEAK SO LOUDLY,or yell, at him and to instead speak to him in a calm inside voice....convinced that he would listen to me, I tried it and he still doesn't listen to me, boys... Oyi.}

Be still.

Waiting.

It's hard for me.

But, I have faith.

I remain.

God knows when and how. 

And, no matter how difficult it is to be still...I pray for His peace and patience while He works on my prayers which I know He has heard very loud, dramatically and clear. {I am an active pray-er!} Ha. God sees my heart. He knows my heart. And, I pray that He can hear my heart.... shouting out to Him. In every way possible.

Psalm 46:10

He says, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.” 

Direction.

Everyday is a new day.

Some days I feel accomplished and ready to take on the world..other days... I need that constant sense of purpose and direction. I need the reminder that I am on the right path to being ME!

In the meantime...I do a little of everything and pray that the sense of direction will hit me when the time is right.

A little over a month ago I decided that staying at home would be a good step for me. I don't regret my decision. I love it. But, being at home with my kids was just the first step of a new beginning. My days are filled with house chores, daily tasks, watching my Cami, planning dinner, helping my Husband, Blogging, some days crafting and reading other days...I just relax and take it easy... it's a good time. I love being home but I also love exploring and learning.

During this time I have seen other Bloggers evolve and grow.  I have tried to learn and develop new Blogging techniques that will allow for more purpose driven and  audience specific post. I am learning and surely I have much room for improvement, like with everything in life.

Today. Today, I created. For a friend... it was fun and I love to make new things but I will say this...crafting or handmade goods as a business is as of right now, not really for me. When I first started it; it was new, fun and exciting. I have since learned and grown but now I feel like I should move on and explore.

We shall see what new and exciting doors will open for this Momma of Dos... for now I leave you with what I created today...