Friday, June 22, 2012


{This post is part of my Identity Series.... click ::HERE:: for others}

Some months I look back and did I do it? Not because I am "that good" but because I tend to fall apart when I stress out....more so now than ever before...I never really gave it much thought until the last few weeks when I worked long hours and still came home to bathe my children and eat dinner with my family without having a single moment of "BLAH".

Growing up; I never saw myself as a Momma and Wife. I always thought I would have an 8 to 5 job and that, that would be it. I have been working since I was 14 years old with my Momma, cleaning houses.....

These days...I work in an office, outside the home, from about 7:30 am to 5pm, Monday through Friday, I have 2 kids and a Husband that I am responsible for and come home to everyday. I try. Really hard. To leave my everyday "work" at work. Yes, I come home and every once in a while tell my Husband how my day at the office went but honestly once I get home, just like when I get to work in the mornings, I hit the ground running. I talk and think about a million and one other things at home that work.... just gets left behind.

I will admit for years now I have dreamed of being a Stay-at-Home Momma {SAHM}but since that dream has been temporarily placed on the back burner, I tend to think of how good work is for me and how good I can be at work. I don't like to discuss my job here much but lets just say that  I stay VERY busy and do fairly well at "managing" my everyday in the office. I am very proud to be a hard working "young" Hispanic female in a "good position".

Not tooting any horns here but I "work" and then "work" some more... my 8 to 5 job is a Blessing. And, my after hours "job" is an even bigger Blessing. Some Momma's don't like to call being a Momma a "job" because we shouldn't feel like we HAVE to be Momma's but instead we should want to be Momma's...but trust matter how much I want to be a Momma some days..I just have to be. Not because  I don't love my amazing children and Husband but because that's just how life is...right now...

Being an OSHWMOFDOS & WIFE has been a challenge but an amazing ride that I would not trade for the world. Yes, I stress out and wish I could just be a Momma and Wife...but I also think about it and how great I am when I can do both and still manage to think straight. If and when I become a SAHM, I know I will miss leaving every morning to an office, dressing up, having meetings and drinking coffee for no reason but I am sure that if and when that day comes a new routine will fill my day and I may still drink coffee for no reason....I can't promise I will dress up though! Ha.

Being able to have experienced being an OutSide the Home Working Momma of Dos and Wife has been a good heart filling accomplishment for me.  I know that while working  in a "cushion-y" office job that allows me to sit in an air conditioned room in a desk in front of a computer and "do" is fun but I love being at home and would rather spend my days blogging, taking pictures, crafting and watching my kids have super meltdowns and punch one another in the face, it's the Momma in me. I can't wait to be in that stage of my life but for now I embrace where I am and do my best to make the best of it.... one day... I may just be a heart filled day...  

Working outside the home has made me a different breed of Momma. Not better just aware that I am not missing much if I Stay at Home and care for my kids and Husband instead of having a "real world career"...Being a Momma is my if I  get to leave the work world behind..I would probably miss it...but I wouldn't hate my new position... as a true blue SAHM!

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