There come days in my life...when I can't hear Him. I know He is there and I can see Him speaking....but I don't know what He is saying or trying to get me to understand.... everything gets lost in translation.
My thoughts these days are; what is it? What is my purpose here? What should I be learning? Why am I not "there" yet?
It's frustrating and God knows it that I try everyday to get back on track.
I have NEVER stated that I am perfect, nor do I pretend or attempt to be....I am me. I am who I am. I speak up and move into action when I think it's just. I help others and try to build them up when I know they can't seems to do it for themselves...I don't do it for the light. I do it because I love them and want to see people succeed.
Then I come back to me. Am I really helping myself enough?
In order for us to help others we must take care of ourselves first, right? Be good in body, mind and spirit as an individual so that I can as a whole bring light and courage into other peoples lives.
These are thoughts.
And, I really don't know what all God is saying. Or how much longer He wants me to wait...but I am here. An open heart. A ready mind and an able body....waiting.
To hear His voice.
To follow Him.
In the midst of my imperfections and in the midst of my stubbornness. I am ready.
But, I can't hear Him....