Where I am now? ::Using our energy to move forward ::

Where I am now?

Well, I am in-between. Per usual. 

Between..... here and there. 

Between balancing life and Motherhood. Between finding myself and being lost. Between being myself and trying to recreate who I am. Between writing and taking time off. Between falling apart and building myself back up. 

I feel like I have been in this place for a while now, years maybe. Stuck, seeking a place with relevance to who I am and what I want for my future. It takes time for me to truly settle not because I don't want to settle but because I have not found the place that is a right fit for me.

In life that is... 

But, I think it all comes down to growth and continued learning. 

Does this mean I am a non-conformist? Maybe, a little?  I just want to be in a good place where I can "settle" but don't have to settle for less. It means that no matter what right now, I am making seeking this better place for me, making it a priority and my main focus. 

Have I thought about leaving the blog world? I talk about it almost every year, quitting and not blogging anymore, giving it all up and moving on with my life. But, it hasn't happened yet mainly because every time I try to quit something even more amazing falls into my lap and I have that innate urge to run with it. And, I usually do.

The writing also...... always, brings me back in. 

For almost 5 years now I  have also helped run a group called the Houston Latina Bloggers. Because of it, other amazing projects have come together in collaboration with so many other local women who hustle hard. Not to mention I work an 8-5 p.m. non-social media related position, have two young children, and I have also worked on my professional development and creating workshops to grow my blog and social media side-gig, and oh yeah, I try to maintain a somewhat social life.

In between all this,  I needed a good long pause and found a moment to slow down the Momma of Dos engine. To re-focus. Find my clarity and start over.... 

In a nutshell, I needed a true break. NOW, it's April of 2019 and the fire is back...

This year I want to give my all in a purposeful and genuine way and continue to move forward. This time, I hope it's different. I want to maintain a good focus and I want 2019 to end differently.

So, what will be different? 

Last year I started learning more about channeling into energies, vibes, and the light that surrounds us. I have since tried to truly seek these energies in myself and others. On the flip-side, I never really knew what kind of energy I was giving out to other people or how other people perceive me. But, I've learned to be more in tune and conscious of "my energy, my vibe" and who I am attracting. I know that I'm a person that tries to do as much as possible for everyone and anyone. I also know that I have been the kind of person that will find time to support others and give credit where credit is due. I don't ever really think twice about it, I just do it.

I truly believe in karma... do good for others and don't expect anything in return.

I know that I feed off of other peoples energy.  I feel that everybody has all the things they need to succeed. We choose to do things differently and to follow our own purpose and follow that light and that energy that we each carry. I always try to think about the positive because I definitely feel like I'm a positive person. Which doesn't mean that I don't have dark moments because I have them for sure. I've been in all kinds of situations and I've been hurt and hurt others but you keep going. You push through that energy and you renew it and you renew your life and you renew your vibes.

The difference is direction and intention... I want a new direction and intention for my blog...and that's what I plan on achieving. 

::A 2015 Vision::

I think people read my blog, view my social media updates and can maybe forget that I have an 8-5 PM job which is NOT social media, marketing or PR related. A job that I have honestly worked hard to obtain and maintain. I received a college degree in 2005 and 10 years later I still don't feel like I have put my degree to good use despite becoming an Assistant Supervisor in one of the busiest Elections departments in the US. I assisted in running the 3rd largest county in the U.S. That among many other accomplishments in my career. A career that for 3 months after each pregnancy and 7 months in 2012-2013 I put on hold for my family. A career that I don't mind having, that I enjoy and love. I love being a working Momma. Not many can tell you that. I love my family and children as well. With each job comes a new level of work life balance. But, that doesn't mean that I don't like to grow, learn and achieve. 

I rarely speak about my 8-5pm, and it took 4 years for me to discuss the fact that I worked for Harris County Elections here on my blog. This will probably be the only post "directly" about my job in hopefully the next 5 years or so. 

Here is why. In January after several conversation with a good friend, speaking to a life coach and spending the previous 30 days doing a 30 days of Affirmation challenge; I decided changes needed to be made. I also put some real thought into what I needed to do for my family and myself.  Making the decision that this year, I needed to step it up and move on to the next level. Because I know I can. 

I came into work on the first day of 2015, cleared my current cubicle and decided that I would not be in this desk past March or April. I gave myself a clear vision of leaving that cubicle and then worked hard every day towards making my job a good, happy, healthy environment for myself. I decided that if I had worked hard in the last year and a half I would work harder in the next 4 months. Working towards a new position, either in my current company or else where. 

While this blog and my writing and social media communities are my passion, I love having this "double-life". I might complain that I am exhausted and never have much time for anything but I truly thrive from it. 

So the vision. I pray. A lot. Daily. With my kids, alone, at my desk, in my car... I asked for God to provide a new place for me where I can further grow, explore new opportunities and have the same or better level of flexibility that I have now. Have I obtained that? Well. 3 weeks ago a co-worker announced her very unforeseen resignation. A week later, I thought, I should apply for this job. The same week I inquired with my boss, the other departments managers, and applied to HR. The following Monday I received an interview and yesterday. I started my new job. Same company, different department. I envisioned it in January. Set my mind to it and then did those things needed to succeed and of course seized the perfect opportunity. 

Why am I sharing this? The mindset, the intent, the prayers. Good karma. Wishing others well. Are all a very powerful thing. I don't know what you believe in. But, I  do know that having a good positive outlook as well as seeking spiritual peace and acceptance can take you places. I know that having goodwill for others and not being jealous of their journey but instead seeking your own, will have good "karma like" results. I am constantly motivated by female CEO's, by Women Bloggers, by good all-around hard working sacrificing people. I seek to be motivated and create my own journey and story. Will I one day be a CEO who blogs? Maybe or maybe not but either way; it's my vision and my journey that really matters.

Learning to create opportunities based on your given talents, your learned skills and the purpose that drives us all, is what my vision is about.

What do I see for 2015? Good things. Better surroundings. And, as Walter Mercado would say...mucho, mucho Amor!

Let me also add to my vision a Husband, who constantly pushes me to do more and be my best because he knows that as young Hispanic parents we can do so much more! That paired with two little children who are always so patient and look up to me and my every move. I am inspired and motivated most by them. My vision for 2015 is not complete yet. But, I feel satisfied so far.

One of my other goals was to seek more local blogging opportunities. Because of this new job, I will probably be forced to seek more local events and blogging opportunities. Something I feel is really needed for local Latino Bloggers.

::My Electronic Vision Board with lots of good resources:: 

         Follow Connie's board ::Vision Board 2015:: on Pinterest.  

Now you tell me, it's almost April... what is your 2015 vision and how will you create your positive happy space?

A Holiday Reflection ::2014 is over::

::Marriage:: 
My Husband and I like every other marriage, couple and as individual experience highs and lows. Times where we support one another fiercely, or when we just feel like giving up completely. But, in the last 15 years I have learned that no matter what, we are always there for one another. Never perfect just dependable. This year we were committed to more date-nights which with help from good friends and my Momma or his. We were able to accomplish. We have seen the difference it makes in our relationship and stress level. Next year.... MORE date-nights!  In all we both know that marriage is not easy and we try very hard to work on it and to work on ourselves as individuals...everyday. We celebrated 8 years of marriage this year and have been together for 15...it's been a lifetime of lessons learned... time well spent and an lifetime of blessings to go.

::Family:: 
I focused this year on making everything about my little family of 4. #TeamGomez We are who need each-other the most. I wanted us to have peace and unity as a family of 4 and I think we achieved that. We were able to travel more and explore our own city a bit more this year, since our Dos little ones are "outgrowing" the tantrum stages and have a better attention span. I love everything we can teach them and the experiences we are able to provide for them. It takes a lot of work and we are more than willing to invest in them. 

My parents are also a huge blessing and have always been...they help us more than they should some times...I am very thankful... even though they are crazy Mexican Grandparents who love to over-shower the kids with presents but their love is unconditional and so appreciated. We all drive each other nuts can't imagine us living in one house, ever.  Although we'd be one awesome MTV reality show.

::Friends:: 
I read somewhere...

I've learned over the years, only the one who really want to be around will remain. And, you know what no matter how small my circle becomes every year I have had the biggest rewards.

Along the way, I have met some pretty amazing ladies from the world wide web who have become the best friends a girl could ask for! Plus they totally get my passion for this here blog and they get why I write. Their support has been impeccable and much needed. 

::Blog Wise::
For my blog it's been a fantastic year! The busiest in my 6 years of blogging and the best since I started to do this as a business in 2012.  I have had so many amazing opportunities this year, was able to travel and meet so many amazing new people as well as connect in person with many online blogging friendships! It's so different to meet people in person, see them smile and able to speak to one another. The REAL life experience will always make things so much better. I am thankful and humbled by everyone who trusted me this year to work with them and I hope that our friendships last a life time!

::Career Wise::
Not much happened in 2014 in my 8-5 but I plan to change that in 2015..... My #oneword for 2015 is Focus. The focus is about to get real!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! MOMMA OF DOS APPRECIATES ALL THE LOVE AND SUPPORT THIS YEAR!! THANK YOU FOR BEING HERE!!! 2015 WILL BE AMAZING AND I TRULY HOPE IT BRING YOU SO MANY NEW BLESSINGS!!! 

What about you, how did your 2014 turn out??